trust.wont.last.just.lust.in.past.so.does.in.dust.

trust is granted not asked. you grant someone with trust means you believed in them. but what happen if the trust won't last? what if that person broke and breech the trust? is there gonna be second chance? or simply "Strike Three!! You're Out!!!"

have you ever award someone wit one, but yet it still not 100%. not fully awarded. its not dat i dowan to but..some painful memories made me to. from wat i've learnt, security...the desire for protection..from pain & broken heart. the social needs from the famous Maslow's Hierarchical Needs Theory.

for me, trust is like a pole..for a heart@friendship or any tier you up to..the stronger the trust, the stornger the pole..vice versa. first time caught cheating @ lies...chances granted but still the pole weaken and so on it goes.. till the time when you had given up hope, and totally surrender to the Almighty..for watever gonna..like shiela on 7 "berhenti berharap"...

don't it make my brown eyes blue

just love it..crystal gayle

don't know when i've been so blue
don't know what comes over you
you've found someone new
and don't it make my brown eyes blue

i'll be fine when you're gone
i'll just cry all night long
say it isn't true
and don't it make my brown eyes blue

tell me no secrets, tell me some lies
give me no reasons, give me alibis
tell me you love me and don't me cry
say something but don't say goodbye

i didn't mean to treat you bad
didn't know just what i had
but honey, now i do
and don't it make my brown eyes (blue)

never tot i went through it..again..

Used to be the most determined. For whatever obstacles, I would and will try to overcome. I believe in as long as I have the desires to reach my goals, then I won’t stop trying. I’ll wait as long as it took. The most patient I can be.

All critics should be constructive. Should be taken that way. Nothing should come on my way. Nothing could stop me till I want to. Nothing can bring me down, knocked me hard to the grass or I’ll comeback with better and greater will.

That’s how it should be. But what had happened? What just happened? What am I now? Who am I now? Do I still the same which I don’t think so?

Everything is blur. Uncertainty is clouding me. The path I took, the one I thought the best, the trail I followed. The lost is where I am. The haze that distort my vision.
To whom should I go?

To whom should I plead? Am I gonna be left? And bleed? Again? Wounded and crippled. No string to attach, no stick to support, no light to follow. Blow in glow. Lost in me. The game that thought it’s me. No mission with no vision. Again? Cry without tears? Terror without fear? Can I go though? Again? The same old path? The same old lust? I’m lost! In the game on me..