may and might, i wish i hope

you may not know
you may not realize
you may not understand

that all of these are killing me
it is so bad
it is so sad

you might not want to know
you might not want to realize
you might not want to understand

that all of these had killed me
i am dying
of trying

hoping for a savior
to pull me up
out of this melancholic confusion
hoping it was you
hoping it is you
hoping it will be you

may and might
wish that i could have the strength
open up your heart
please
make it be me

For You

there is something
i have to tell
i think that i had fell
for you
yes it is true.

yes, i have fall
in love
with you.

its been a while since
it looks like a wild dream
and i jst got the will
to express how i feel.

there are many times that i tried to
but strength isn't on my side; no
wonder how should i may show
that i had fall
for you.

there are more to be told
jst your permission
that is on hold
wonder if you will too
be on the path which i wish to.

seems too much that i had
and this is all i can get,

hoping
it is you that i had
be on my side while
walk you
through the mile
we smile
we hi
on high.

but it is all what i dream to
no where if hasn't be you
will i wait
shall i have to
till that day
what say you..

A Showcase of Time

Today; age has shown its face. No matter how I tried, it just won't leave; stay, still, stick on the mirrow.

Today, I was reminded of those days; of the times of my life. Surprise and be surprised.

Today, I started with neat just to end up in mess. Ran out of tricks, nothing left under my sleeves.

A showcase of time. It does flies. It just did.

the taste of bittersweet

How was it? To suddenly realize that you don't know.

How was it? To suddenly realize that you are not sure.

How was it? To suddenly realize that all this while you don't realize.

A mixture of pure and taint.

A feeling which will bring you to a definite nowhere.

An ecstasy of absolute tears.

Who would rather anticipate when certain is promising.

Who would rather wait when now is here.

Who would rather feel when live is current.

Who would rather cry when joy is just a punch-on-the-face away.

Only once you are through, then you'll taste them; the bittersweet of mine. The taste of mind.

Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard (Coldplay, 2002).

The life once i knew was not that friendly

The life once i knew was not that friendly, anymore. A pure trial visit recently shook me up as it seem that it had settled down well without my present. In fact it seem like they do not need me there.

The smirks, the sounds, the vibes are just another evidence of you-ain't-needed-here feeling. Is it the age? Am I too ol' skool?

Is this the end, and a sum up of the dissapointing twenty eleven? Or might it be an opportunity for further recoup of performance and future visit? The later sounds irresistable but the first brought my foot on the ground.

Sigh~