what to do?

Being in a period that most people are trying to avoid from had taught me much in life. Living in this challenging world, this is the condition I wouldn’t expect to ever happen to a person like me who couldn’t hope that much.

It is the time when you are not dependable with and hopeless; a period of realizing myself, getting to know myself and to reexamine of my past mistakes and wrong-doings. Did I choose the right things to do? Am I on the right side? Will I learn something valuable from all this and does it gonna benefit me or others? These are simple questions that I don’t have and couldn’t answer.

I left something behind. In fact, I’d most probably left everything behind, and I’m not even moving forward. I left the part that I hate the most, the part where I’m doing something that I dislike but just giving them a favor. But there is also some part of my life that I loved the most, the love of my life, the one that I want to keep and cherish all my life was unintentionally departed too.

Confused. That’s the most suitable word which can describe me at the moment. Am I gonna answer those simple questions above? I don’t know. What I do know now is I have to do something here. I can’t just sit and do nothing. If I’m not going to answer those questions of what had happened, then I have to start thinking of what am I going to do with that. I should and I would. It’s just the matter of time. What’s actually I need to start with? Well, I’ve to start with looking and finding a job!!

words of wisdom

There is no such subject in any school curricular would teach about this(correct me if i'm wrong), but most of us been living with it in our entire life.We've heard of these words of wisdom. There are lots of it (just name it!). One of my favourite is "if you wanna, you gonna"(-T..hahaha). It sound quite straight foward. Personally for me its mean u gotta go for whatever you want in your life. You wanna you better. No matter how hard you're going to but as long as you want to achieve them you gotta be determined. The most determined as you wanna and someday you might get it(hopefully, wish you goodluck!). My another long time favourite is "think before you act". You might heard it before eh? Short and sharp. Applicable to everything. Whatever you wanna do or say,you better have some thought first. Right or wrong? Do it or not? Think first. But don't take too long to think of what to say or others will thought that you're retarded.

And whats the great deal of these words of wisdom? Its true that most of them are sort of kinda good stuff @ positive @ nice ideas @ brilliant (whats the point of calling it words of WISDOM right?) But do we use it in our life? Are we really up to these wisdom? If we do why there is still people made mistakes? Why do there are still others who felt 'missing out of life'? Meaning, not all apply these wisdom in their life.

"life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you gonna get..."(-forest gump). Yes, its true. You never know whats gonna happen, but what are you gonna do with it? Living and just wondering? Or you look for the answer? One of my lecturer from university says "you know what you know, you don't know what you don't know, it is good to know what you know and it is good to know that you don't know rather than you don't know that you don't know(you might be in danger)". Sound complicated?(hehehe). Its not the words that we are looking here but the meaning of it and how we interpret and apply them in our life. Words of wisdom would just be words of boredom if we just listen and ignore them.

So what's your words of wisdom?