the art of S

So far, throughout this stupendously great season, it has been a great journey. A moment spent with friends brought us back to some memorable stories of how it all started; to be where we are now. The gossips then teasing, from one led to another until finally I realized about the art of S.

It started with the Smile. Smile was way back then. Once was the peak of time. Once was superior. Once I lost; the time when I couldn't tighten my grip, to keep on smiling, which later sadness being the shoulder to cry on. Stoned. It took years to get back on my life ride. And it was a great challenge fighting to get my spot back in, not in smile but sober. Better than never.

Then Shit came. Shit came uninvited. Yup, shit happenned, and it did! But at first, shit seems to be the total redemption. The redemption of all the shits happened during my smiling era. And I'm surely determined to make it happened, to materialized them. It looks like success had suddenly scooping its way in. But as it is, shit happened. Shit stumbled and shift to the other side of the banks. Oh shit!

For the second time, shit ensued.

Then I decided to put things back on hold and rest for a while. During my break, smile returned; claiming back all the smiling moment, all the smiling memories. It was a total shocking surprise; wondering on how should I react. Of all I ever wanted. This could be it!...***wink***

But this time, I'm the one who slipped, with the feeling of unsecured clouding my space which later I chose to step back. Being totally plain silly I guess. Maybe I wasn't ready yet to get the swing back on mode. Well, that was my mistake. I stumbled, tripped and slipped and made the wrong decision. I wondered, out of all occasion in life, how could I choose Shit instead of Smile; I need to smile eventuality. I thought I could save Shit out of the shit on the other side. I thought I could repair the defects. I thought I'll survive swimming crossing that life river which separate me and shit but I'm the one who needs help then. I was hit by wave and drifted. Oh Shit!

Ok. I'm enough with the thoughts. It won't bring any good now. I'll keep on cruising with the flow, hunting and waiting for some new opportunity and new sign. My ammo now is just silence and hope that I'm strong. It just one of my sensational regret or maybe lament in life when I see Smile keep on smiling all the way; on how I missed and blew my chance. Well, it may be the sacred secret of life. You'll never know.

Sometimes, somehow, shit can be painful in life but just keep on smiling and you'll learn about the secret later.

Happy Independence Day

are Malaysian getting sloppy or some dudes trying to play God?

Previously, I read about the conspiracy theory; the bio-weapon strikes that intentionally to create a global panic situation. It had caused much trouble for the citizen of planet Earth with the casualties and fear.

It's typical when people turn to their God when disaster happened (norm I guess). Well they (and I) should. There'll be datasheets, pamphlets, zines, articles and emails being passed and forwarded around, on how to prevent/ overcome/ oversee/ prepare ourselves during this outbreak. Not to forget the prayers (good!) to The Almighty.

But then, some so-called small organisations (or maybe just one, I donno) are trying to take advantage through this hard time. They'll forward leaflets and mails on prayers we should recite and practice during the outbreak. It seems what they are doing is something good but sadly, in a way that testing our belief and trust to the only One; which could bring to loosing our faith. Wrong and misguided prayers are what they are promoting.

It should be in our deep concern on this issue as this is the time we should stay strong and believe in The Almighty and not loosing our faith and be misguided. So, be very careful with these dudes and their stuff because we are here, facing His test and not turning away from Him.

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak.

Conspiracy Theory??

Heard (read actually) rumors that current-world-fear Swine Flu or H1N1 is a planned bio-weapon of world-police-wannabe country and its greatest ally. Whether it's true or not? But some facts are just seems logic and not made up. Who knows right?

But if it's true, they gonna get the payback..bigtime!!

is it "durian" caused me all these??

Some would say it's a trend. A person wearing mask, then lotsa people wearing mask too the next day. Some even with colored and funny illustration printed. I owned one too.

Some said it's the weather. Haze. Dusts, smokes and other pollution, had caused this unhealthy air condition. One person get sick, then everyone get sick. A person cough in the office, lead to mostly everybody coughing too the very next day.

Some would say it's the virus. The current-world-fear Swine Flu. A number of people suffered death in Mexico then all over the world are at risk due to its pandemic capability.

But which to blame for my 5 days headache + 3 days of flu + 2 days of running nose + 2 days of blocked nose (and counting..) + soon-to-be cough coz my throat getting itchy + packetssss of tissue paper during running nose session?

And now I got Ospexin, Fedac (triprolidine + pseudoephedrine), Cetirizine, Apo Napro and SP Troche. And no idea of what are those; only prescription to be followed.

i would rather go to watch movie than sitting here waiting for absentism to present

In life, there'll be some situations, which somehow would be anticipated, and damaging too. In life, some people come, and some people go. Some people arrived, some people leave. Some people left, and some just stand there, deaf. Some people gone, and some were left alone.

And they said, C'est la vie.. (such a life!! or that's life).

Agreed? Or Regret?

It's good when distance wouldn't be a hassle for maintaining good hospitality and friendship. It's like memories are just too precious and unforgettable. Better remain, sustain and live it well forever. Thanks for the companionship and the love...so far

card of happiness is a card of regretful

Apart of my great week, a sudden moment shocked me while I'm looking for a stapler. A card that had much put me to one of my greatest regret in my life. A card which never expected to reached me. The card that stopped my 'ticking clock' and bring me into reality; to the moment of truth. A moment which made me sat and thought; of how regret I am, of how I lost, of how could I missed and waste the opportunity that once was my dream, of how slow am I to react and grab the once in a lifetime opportunity. Sigh..

Decade of War had left. Had decided. Had moved on.

On the bright side, it would be great, and I'm happy for Decade of War. It's just me who is too late to realize of how is the feeling of being too late; of being on the losing side. August 15th will tell 'em all..

The war shall stop. The war got to stop. The decade of war will resume as my war history. It need an ending; a closure. Guess this is it!

duh..why am I always late and loose? cis..