into pieces; the reality check of what's stolen from my plate

some says..
age is just a number;
a number known as a figure
a figure is just a look
a look that comes from the eyes
in the eyes its just physical
physical which just a body
body is for the a show
a show is all about cheer
cheer is just a laugh
a laugh is only a feeling;
a feeling that from the heart
a heart is watchu need
to break me;
into parts
into pieces
is that it?

having nasi lemak with lauk ayam is wonderful but a fresh nasi lemak with only telur rebus could be tempting too; or switch to Lontong instead

It's hard to please everyone as own-self is left unpleased. As the flow which thought will run smoothly had never happened; so far. It brings the worst in. Is it the inner rage-bull soon to be release; banging all life barriers without much question. Flow isn't the matter no more as self-making pace is made. But does it promise me success at the end of the tunnel? Or is there going to be another loophole or even dead end?

New start do sounds good. New starts do promise difference. But do new start promise the highly hoped ends? Nobody could answer that for sure. Some says it may worth to try. Some says you'll start fresh and brand new. But new start will leave everything behind. Starting from the very numero uno.

Mr. Question : Do you need all these?
Mr. Answer : Perhaps.
Mr. Question : Are you willing to leave everything behind?
Mr. Answer : Yes? Wait!! No? I don't know... If I don't want?
Mr. Question : WDF!!! Who's Mr. Question here hah?

what's with this JackS?

Amazing! What a shock on how far JackS was left behind in the scene on technology and IT; latest confirmation by reliable sources who conducted unreliably research.

It is confirmed! Even Mr.Google surrendered to look for JackS. Over 90 pages and they raised the white flag. What a so-random with JackS. Haha. A nearly squinting-eyes session. Fuh...

Ms.Merriam and Mr.Webster said: a man; mechanical device; something that supports; any of several fishes; a small white target ball in lawn ball; playing card with soldier figure; slang; female fitting in an electric circuit. Wow! That much? No wonder with that random search, Mr.Google gone fed-up. Huhu.

s.n.a.p

It's amazing how things change in a snap. A snap is just what it need; just a snap away. A blink of an eye? It's incredible to see how fast 'it' transform and wholly change the atmosphere. You may be well yesterday but badly ill today. You can say I do today and could later swap to I don't the next day. You could start by saying Yes as applying the Yes Man attitude and end up by loving the word No later.

The beauty of life again being questioned on how these unpredictable forces did affect our daily or routine decision; a decision which may change someone's life. How these random things play its part and bit by bit bite our heart. Who knows? It could be a capricious attitude which we hate the most or it's just a matter "Think before you act" and regret them later.

Snap. S.N.A.P. Still None Are Promised. Beauty of life perhaps? Or fool it is?

it ends; as how you start them

Starting point. The initial steps. The inaugural stage. It's all lies from there. Result derived from the process, but how it begin will normally determined its end; the full stop. Even it may not be a definite stop spot; the initiation approach could and would play its influence and roles towards the finishing line.

• if you initiate your step by honesty, then you'll end up as honest and with honor too.
• if you start them by telling lies, ahead, lies would interfere in between and patiently wait at the stoppage spot.
• if a smile was in your primary march, then you'll end up running with biggest smiles and lotsa laughter
• being a JackS?
  

A highly anticipated determination needed if you want to change them; regardless on how you started. But, not everybody is capable to do so. Once they said, "once you go bad, you never go back". It's right though. But, it's you to decide. Your desire; your wish. Whichever you opt to pick, the freedom and power are always yours. You are who you are and nobody can change that. Love..

whack ending to bad start to worsen continuity

Meeting with an old acquaintance was a great one. It's been a while since the last one. Usual rendezvous lead to was-to-be favorite spot even lotsa dogs are chasing cats in the cold and wet event. Meeting the newborn was the main attraction unfortunately time suitability didn't agree with us. So, it's a non-physical meting; more towards digital images presentation. But he's a one cute chunk though; even he's just few months old. It's the genetic; Asia Europa mix-blood.

But that's not the point here. The major headache suffered later is the main thing. Concentration distracted as it feels like a big strong giant knock on your head! What a painful experience since medication wasn't available at the moment. Thanks to i-love-to-walk-empty-handed-rather-than-holding-something (medicine)-to-work philosophy. Such a JackS philosopher-who-only-know-to-burden-himself! W.D.F!!! (don't get me wrong, refer previous2 post).

Non-thoughtful philosophy plus major-head-knock plus midnite-home-return equals to overslept plus late for work plus major-intense-boredom-coz-nothing-to-do and hunger. Hunger? Why is it on the list?

Another blasting news received is the engagement of the long lost decade-of-war. Is it a lost? Sorta-kinda-who-ask-you-not-to-make-a-move-coz-too-shy? It seems everyone moved on, a step forward ahead. Well, JackS gotta do what a JackS gotta do..Aight? which is nothing..duh..

my tired bubbly mouth with the story of what's not and please-do stuff

The thought-to-be great bout the pay-for-living job had sometime results in the opposite side. As few dudes did showed their interest, it couldn't resist the troublesome to play their roles too. And the just-around-the-corner two-and-half-hour sit-think-answer-or-you-fail will determine everything; even it does trigger my nerve and test the capability of their so-called educator. In the current classes, hesitant did spur its spores of major failures. Again, tests the ability and wrecking some nerve of tell-them-what's-this-and-that dude. The part of external motivation and education had been done thoroughly for the entire process but internal motivation has to play their parts too though. It just a matter of time and realization of the importance of what to be concentrate on and what is happy-enjoying KIV stuff. One part is done and another is their own will; the soon-to-be emergence of who'll prevail the odds and who's not.

oh sorry; direct translation as dizziness and sleepyhead clouding the grey sky of mine..hail the originality

oh moon
doncha care me no more
once the tears drop on my check
songs on radio seems to teasing me
when you're with someone else

is this hate was really love
that still rest for you
and i truly hope
behind that smiles
you miss me too

refused
to act as i am happy
i refuse
seeing you with the other
i confess to be envy
filled up in me
when you're with someone else

is this hate was really love
that still rest for you
and i truly hope
behind that smiles
you miss me too

once you stare on her eyes
i'm knocked down to the ground
by the moment when you are really leaving
it's just like
breathing in the water

is this hate was really love
that still rest for you
and i truly hope
behind that smiles
you miss me too

no need to be rocket scientist to discover such of unwell condition

Latest discovery. Whatta breakthrough! JackS is none other than found and fought before which later the journey of survival is yet to be more challenging.

It starts with hard-to-breath and you-cannot-took-cold-drinks had been long past an forgotten. Then comes injury-prone-always-lying-on-the-road-side which did spare some of JackS's blood on the street and money to the mechanic for believed to be performance-enhanced of king of the road. It does take quite of JackS's fortune in doing so but as it seems slower now or maybe over soon.

Then comes the bleeds-war. The war that brought much fear in JackS's life. The fear which had brought JackS down to the center of the earth cracks; for the mean of survival as normal dude. The war that could ends any dreams for a legacy to be passed down towards generations. Prescription and motivation are the was-to-be the last salvation which yet caused a not-so-confirmed-success-until-tested.

The latest discovery is the lowered blood pump as the doc said it doesn't pump-it-up that well. "That well" as in not on its best. Even it's not that severe but it may lead to. Well, who knows rite? No one knows and nobody wants them! urgh..

Guess, listening and follow the given instructions are the best option had at the moment. We'll just wait and see ya..? (gotta pump-it-up yeah!!)

journey to the food addiction district of AS

A first timer one would say. Well, it's true though. A crash-course in the never-been-before urban did give some new experiences on this unfamiliar-different region; people, love, addiction. The inaugural visit with initial intention of King&Queen-of-The-Day celebration turns to offer more than expected.

In fact it does provide an opportunity on getting along with new comrades and latest playa-in-crime (and some celeb-look-alike; as they claimed <- for real?). A new thing was learned on these dudes. On their addiction of tummy-filler joints which scatter all around their district of love; which they heart the most. It doesn't took that long to being introduced with the local's famous favorites BAR, Astro, Iman and Yasmeen (Royal is a miss). Each one with its own magnetic attraction; could pull back these comrades to travel back about 400KM just to savor the undeniable drugs. The drugs that they considered as 'explodes' or 'meletup'!! Their customary rendezvous (belakang; referred as to its location) wouldn't take too long to assemble and gather their loyal members; just to trash-out their next activities or joints to knock, or simply just for hang out session.

AS isn't a big conurbation; make it easily toured even for first-timer. Mastery is just a matter of frequency, repetition and guidance. So, AS; would certainly be another must-revisit destination!!