sudden? shock! why? try..

just as sudden! what a sudden! such a suddden shock! what a shock!
things change. keep on changing. ongoing process. on and on again.
i wonder why. in our much praise and anticipated life, these so called sudden changes happened. i do understand, as time goes by, things change. as time goes by, peoples change. the thing that wonder me the most while i'm wandering is that how sudden these thing could happen. it could be to anyone.
keyword = sudden.
why is it so sudden? while there's no warning alarm such a tsunami siren in Japan, you'll be left blank and wondering what had just happened? then later you realized that everything is over. done deal. finish. the end. stop sign. a dot in front of your face. while nothing you could do. to overcome them it was too late yet neither chance for redemption nor corrective action. for any errors.
is it a fair deal when you encounter such terrible yet horrible change? you start to lose, your routines, casualties, the "usuals" and could it be your mind, maybe? the unexpected sudden which i personally couldnt handle.
guess kenny, remy, martin had taught us before by their song "suratan atau kebetulan". if you guys still remember the initial lyrics "sesuatu yang tak disangka, seringkali mendatangi kita". those from late Gen X'ers and early Gen Y'ers would probably know this song.
is there any way to stop these things? any way to handle them? anything that can be done? any how to deal with? or is that just it?
again, i wonder why we should stop trying. life is all about trial and error. you never know whats gonna happen next but at least things in front of you, right in front of your face could be much appreciated. grateful. plan and keep on trying. no matter how much time and space you had wasted. it will never be a waste in life if you keep on trying. tired of trying? that just mean that we dont try that hard. till when? till we reach our goals. till we step on our objectives. till we are on the next phase of our lives. till we become the most determined we could ever be. life..

all time favourites

My all time favorites. Not just by me but others too.. I wonder how, why, so much memories vanished in between but I rather stick to you coz you have been, you are still, and you will always be my.. my all time favorites.. It is you..

Tell me when you will be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love divine
Please don’t make me wait again

When will you say yes to me (when will you say yes to me)
Tell me quando quando quando (tell me quando quando quando)
You mean happiness to me (you mean happiness to me)
Oh my love please tell me when

Every moment’s a day (every moment’s a day)
Every day seems a lifetime (everyday it seems like a lifetime)
Let me show you the way (let me show you the way)
To a joy beyond compare

I can’t wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando (tell me quando quando quando)
Just say it’s me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Now every moment’s a day (every moment’s a day)
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way (let me show you the way)
To a joy beyond compare

I can’t wait a moment more (I can’t wait a moment more)
Tell me quando quando quando
Say it’s me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Oh my darling tell me when
And then darling tell me when
Oh my darling tell me when...

shit!..oops..shoot!!! (trying still)

shit! shittier than the shittest!!
only those would come out..damn..dammit.. damned u? sort of..

what the hell? jst cant tell. cut the crap. u crap bag..
the pain in the arse..wont fit even for gas.
the same ol' path. the same ol' grass. knocked me to lick them up. f**ked up!

create me a story. a fairytale maybe. so dat i could fly up. out of this muddy banks.
nothing would change. the final say with full determination. beggin' down thru my knees. hoping for sun shine thru my sky. my dark blue sky. seems gray wasnt the favourite no more.

lost in translation. lost in absolute isolation. the only island in mind. crashed and sink to the deepest ocean of hell.

its hard to be nice. harder to be better. but whats with the world. couldnt fit without anger? rage to control. face to be fixed. to be the new or its enuff just a mix?
seems the world still aint ready for dat.

to be wrong is totally not! but nice isnt an option. which path should i took? shoot!!
how could i face? the next without trail. the one planned since the start. the one which hope to blast. and now i'm the last. left, passed yet to be forgotten. what da &%=#! (toooot....)

am i just gonna wait, bleed n suffer? again? nobody wants dat! hopeless dream out from sleep. yet nightmare is waiting to say "hi there, alone eh? lets be friend, shall we?" what?
hopeless..miss..yet lost..

miss..mess..misrable.

the lost i felt. the emptiness. sorrow..sorry cannot be borrow.
what am i thinkin? what am i doin? not am but had! its a done deal? dowan to be dat way..
dowan to deal wit dat again. had enuff!
the path was too painfull..tired n sickening! cis..

but what now? whats next? i couldnt face it. not again. i was defeated! again? hate it when it happen.

lost, lust, miss..too much..too late? sad..why? the most inconvenient period. the lowest i could be.

dammit. i cant handle it no more. 2 days but i'm already in mess. what does this called? broke? think so, yes..! to whom to? for what should?

miss..mess..misrable.
to be or being or had been?