Being in a period that most people are trying to avoid from had taught me much in life. Living in this challenging world, this is the condition I wouldn’t expect to ever happen to a person like me who couldn’t hope that much.
It is the time when you are not dependable with and hopeless; a period of realizing myself, getting to know myself and to reexamine of my past mistakes and wrong-doings. Did I choose the right things to do? Am I on the right side? Will I learn something valuable from all this and does it gonna benefit me or others? These are simple questions that I don’t have and couldn’t answer.
I left something behind. In fact, I’d most probably left everything behind, and I’m not even moving forward. I left the part that I hate the most, the part where I’m doing something that I dislike but just giving them a favor. But there is also some part of my life that I loved the most, the love of my life, the one that I want to keep and cherish all my life was unintentionally departed too.
Confused. That’s the most suitable word which can describe me at the moment. Am I gonna answer those simple questions above? I don’t know. What I do know now is I have to do something here. I can’t just sit and do nothing. If I’m not going to answer those questions of what had happened, then I have to start thinking of what am I going to do with that. I should and I would. It’s just the matter of time. What’s actually I need to start with? Well, I’ve to start with looking and finding a job!!
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