Thursday, December 31, 2009

A closure is all I need and 2010 arrived

As 2009 had ended, I can say that last year hasn’t been a good year for me. In a matter of fact, I could say the 2008 too. It’s not all things went wrong but the opposite side of “something good” has had been in a better shape than the other.

All the misjudgments and wrong doings had almost haunted me for the past couple of years. Numbers of events had much brought me to the deepest low end of regretful; of how could I, why did I, how come I? Or it can simply as on how could you? Or why did you? How come you?

Mistake done exactly 2 years ago. A mistake which till now makes me wonder and question of how stupid a person could be, how dumb a person can be, of how being such a jackass. A mistake, that can’t be overdone, which can’t be repaired nor turned back to.

As it's perishability, the same goes to all those regretful events; what’s lost is lost. I’m not whining but more towards on my relieving effort of those burdens I’d carried all this while. I do realize that there’s no redemption on whatever had, but at least I think I deserved something.

Freedom?

I don’t think so. Total boredom is more likely.

But, good karma did kicked it ass towards the new year. As I finally had my closure on two most indescribable two's. Even sometimes decade of war does lingering, but I'm just a human with error. Nobody's perfect and so do I. Well, it such a progress, a good one!! And a much-hard-to-resist-kinda-addiction had slowly out of my peacefully mind and wounded body. A major break to my sorry-to-say financial and physical. Wow. How nice.

A chapter of misadventure closing its curtain
As a new bright shining from the other side
A bridge to the greater perhaps
A happy new year

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