How could I; How couldn't I

Has been times
Which I had tried
Attempts
Numerously
I just couldn't

The harder I try
The harder it gets
The more I put
The more I push
I just couldn't

Love hate tragedy
A sad sad lullaby
Carried me away
Away from nowhere

Love you
Hate you
Adore and dismiss
I just couldn't

To love
Which I true
Be loved
That I blew
To hate
Just can't take
A step
That I knew
Of times
Which do comes
The guts
That gone
Through time
That flies

Tell me how
Can I hate you
Tell me now
Can it be you
How could I
How couldn't I